Apps Are In. Finally.

I finally did it. Every single essay, supplemental, activity description. Submitted. Done.

I don’t think I realized how much room college apps were taking up in my head until I hit that final submit button. For months, it’s been drafts and redrafts, late night edits, rereading the same 634 words until they didn’t even sound like English anymore. My Notes app is full of random ideas I wrote at the most random times of day because I thought they might turn into something meaningful. But now, it’s quiet.

There’s this weird mix of relief and disbelief. Like, am I sure I didn’t forget anything? Did I really attach everything? But mostly, I just feel lighter. For the first time in a long time, I can hang out with my friends without a voice in the back of my head reminding me that a deadline is coming up. Now I actually get to enjoy senior year.

Senior Assassins has started, which is super chaotic but in the best way. Everyone’s suddenly suspicious of everyone, and you can’t even walk to your car without looking over your shoulder. It’s ridiculous and so fun. Senior Ball is coming up, too! And then there’s senior ditch day. I’m planning a day trip, and I’m honestly so excited. Just being with my friends and doing something spontaneous before we all head in different directions next year.

It feels like I can finally breathe and just live in the moment a little. For so long, everything has been about the future. Now I get to enjoy the present, which feels pretty great.

- AnthroManTalks